If you've been reading my rants, raves and ruminations here for a while, you know quite well that this blog is more of an inconsistently updated personal journal than a themed or focused piece of editorial. While I often write about my passions and things I enjoy, such as music or sports, I also sometimes delve into deeper thoughts and personal stories. Well, here's one for the latter so leave right now if you were expecting fun.
If you did read a few months ago, you probably caught me sharing thoughts about my first "career" job and how I felt about the whole career thing in general. I was uncertain if I made the right choice taking the job I did, as I wasn't totally in line with the things I had been passionate about for a while. Well, since then it's been a lot better. As the situation has been, the position/industry is not ideal, but I'm getting great experience in a wide variety of things and seeing where my work impacts the business, so I've started to enjoy it more and see its benefits.
In addition to thinking about my initial career out of college and the life that comes with the 9-5 grind, I began thinking about the bigger picture. For one, how I might be in this type of work lifestyle for the rest of my life. On a deeper level, I began contemplating the purpose of what I do.
When you're bored at work or sitting in traffic on the way home, there's A LOT of time to think. Sitting in a car and looking out and seeing tons of other cars, you start wondering what the life of the person in the lane next to you is like - and then, how big the world is. And you're just one person on a globe that's filled with billions.
So this is something that has been on my mind lately. In addition to continuing to try to enjoy my work and eventually putting myself in the position where I love what I do, I've been thinking about my place in the world and validating what I do in that career that I go to for 8-9 hours a day. Sure this is easy to do if you're a doctor or a teacher, but if you work in Marketing or PR? Maybe the purpose of life is as simple as us just being here to experience life and enjoy it as much as we can. But I also feel an inherent push to find something greater in what I do. And that's an immensely added weight of thoughts for someone already questioning if they enjoy their job on a level of self-satifaction.
Do you have ever have these type of thoughts or do I just think about this stuff too much for a 23-year old with most of his life ahead of him? None of this would matter if I was content with "just getting by." But I'm not. My girlfriend questions my level of spirituality and though while I guess I don't casually bring up subjects this profound very often, there's a whole lot going on in the internal monologue. I think I've just started to scratch the surface of the spiritual exploration and it's not something you figure out overnight.
So recently I decided to get myself involved in more activities outside of work. I think more involvement these things will suck up the free time I have to ponder what I'm doing with my life and cure my need to question it in the first place.
This post has probably gone in circles so excuse me if it was a bit of a ramble.
CURRENT LISTENING: The Postal Service/Ben Gibbard - Recycled Air (acoustic)
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